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woah..its like been more than a month since ive logged in! haha..okay..just for a fact i almost forgot my password! haha..anyways..one month is like one year in the internet..when someone doesnt reply that fast in YM..is like an hour when it really is 1 minute..
so much things has been goin on these past few weeks and the stressful and carefree madge you see now is the result of love angst, schoolwork, hatred for teachers, pain from dance, YM, and teen problems...
my close friend from the usa got into a car accident and dies a few days after..that week was so sad for me..it just brought me straight down..plus my friends getting mad at me for what happened in mccoys party..which even brought me lower..plus the guy i used to like...all of these shit totally ticked me off..and i cry more often now..
whenevr i think of him..i think of the really fun things we used to do..i honestly wish it would still be like that until now but i guess people change over time and that just sucks..so my advice for y'all is to cherish the special person you are hoping to be with in the future coz you never really know whats goin to happen then..time flies and so was our friendship..i dont really know if it was my fault that it got to this or what..but all i know is that its unfair because i still wanna be friends with him...gosh im so senti right now yeah..well i guess this is meant to be..that it would never go farther than being just friends..a number of my friends tell me that i still have a chance and that he still has the same feeling in him like before..but then i just leave it like this because i gave up already...a long time ago..and it hurts so much to know that he likes someone else..someone you know..someone youre close to..thats soooo sad
but then im thankful na rin that i met him..coz i met more people..and he made me happy for a while..but isnt it weird that the more painful events in your life are the ones you remember the most?! the ones that are carved in your heart..well i guess thats what he did to mine..carved a deep etch in my heart..it bled..and turned into a gimundo scar..
okay..well right now..im totally bruised like LITERALLY..coz of agnes locsin's frickin dance..i admie her but then i think the dance isnt for me ya know..like my body is filled with bruises of all shapes and sizes but its still a bummer..and im super tired right now so ill just go now..take care whoever you are reading this..i may not see you, or text you, or IM you but i still care aryt?! aryt.
peace out.
in yo face biotch.
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